Imma Be Honest

How can I explain myself
When we don’t even speak the same language anymore
Maybe we never did
(Maybe we never did)

They say blood runs thicker than water
(Water)
Well maybe I lost my thirst back when
I was younger

The urge to apologise
My integrity is compromised
So Imma be honest
I don’t know if I’ll ever come home again

Always feel like I gotta confess, get off my chest, strеssing
Why is that
(Why is that)
How can I show myself
After all thats said and done
It’s no past tеnse if the chapter never closed

Don’t think I should settle for less
Your reaction now is anybody’s guess
So Imma be honest
I don’t know if I’ll ever come home again

I’ve been living in this empty house
All these walls, oh they’re closing down
Somethings in the air
Something we can’t see
Only time before the lights go out

Cause all I ever wanted is to love you
But you was never, ever, gonna to hear me out
I can choose my friends but I can’t choose you
Ain’t not much I can do

You say you won’t know me
Once I leave this house
But we both know you won’t feel the same
When I’m not around

Sitting out in the waiting room
With the sun newspaper, brush it under the carpet
Not asking why are you sad
Not saying Imma make it better
Could have been said so easily
Think I grew up
A little messed up
Gotta be tough
That little girl
Wish I knew of
A way to tell her
A way to hug her
A way to grow her, but I can’t
Go back in time

Mental illness is a bitch and I know
You know
But we don’t talk about that stuff
I wish we could have talked about that stuff

The urge to apologise
(Why am I always saying sorry)
My integrity is compromised
So Imma be honest
(I owe it to you)
I don’t know if I’ll ever come home again
So Imma be honest
I don’t know if I’ll ever come home again
So Imma be honest