im so fucking stupid

My hand's still shaking
My body's aching
And I needed you the whole time
I sat in my bed and I tried not to cry
Razor in my hand (GOTH)
I wanted to die
And I tried not to worry you (with all of my problems)
And I tried to get through to you (only you could have solved them)
I can't handle the silence
Feels like I'm dying
I really miss your voice
You don't give me a choice
So tell me what I could have done
What made you wanna run?
Will I finally have my turn?
You make me feel so dumb (again)
This happens every time (I can't)
You leave and apologize
But I really miss your voice