Im Confused

[Verse 1]
I've been focusing on my own, I ain't been thinking 'bout no other music
When I was young, I thought it was cool to smoke 'cause I seen my brother do it
But I learned that wasn't me like I ain't really like no drug abuser
But the drug beat you down, so don't that really make the drug abusive?
Wait, I'm confused
Whatever happen in my life, I just put it in my music
Just learn from they mistakes so you wouldn't have to go through it
Ain't nobody show me the way, I led myself to it

[Chorus]
Everybody want me to be a star, I got a lot on my hands
I'm tired my mama working on cars 'cause it be hard on her hands
I miss Paw Pee, I wish that I can just go call you again
So many deaths around my head, I don't where to begin
I showed you real, you showed me fake, how can I call you my friend?
Get rich and find a better place, man, that was always the plan
Down on my ass, but I just knew that I was always gon' win
Forgive you once, forgive you twice, I can't forgive you again

[Post-Chorus]
Yeah, forgive you again, yeah
Gone in the the wind
And I'm just riding with no VINs

[Verse 2]
Put my soul into this music while you out riding with your friends
I'm just out here doing me 'cause nobody riding to the end
Yeah, I know you say that you okay
Yeah, but it's okay not to be okay
Let's just go our separate ways (Go our separate ways)
Man, this love shit just a phase
I had to learn to only show love to niggas that was gon' show it back
'Cause just because them niggas blood mean they gon' show it back
I'm done lettin' niggas lean on me, I want my shoulder back
Pops said he was gon' be there on time and I got tired of that
That's why I don't depend on nobody
It's only like three or four people I know for sure got me
Touch my brother, we hop out with four twos like I'm Yo Gotti
Walk 'em down, fft-fft, make sure we for sure got him

[Chorus]
Everybody want me to be a star, I got a lot on my hands
I'm tired my mama working on cars 'cause it be hard on her hands
I miss Paw Pee, I wish that I can just go call you again
So many deaths around my head, I don't where to begin
I showed you real, you showed me fake, how can I call you my friend?
Get rich and find a better place, man, that was always the plan
Down on my ass, but I just knew that I was always gon' win
Forgive you once, forgive you twice, I can't forgive you again

[Post-Chorus]
Can't forgive you again
Can't forgive you again, forgive you again, forgive you again