Im chillin

I dont like to talk about it
Id rather let my problems sit til i can't do nothing about it
So fucking stuck that i dont wanna move my body
Ill prolly drop this fucking song halfway through the writing
And i dont wanna be like that
Now im gonna change
Nevermind
Next day
Everything is still the same
Its so hard to commit
Imma lay down
Give myself a break
Im sure its the most important thing that i need right now
Even though i didn't do a thing
Im so fucking tired everyday
Wish i could take something that would make the pain of knowing this go away
For just a little while
Thats all
A little while where i know i can be myself
Without hating myself
Take me to the sky for a while
I can stare at these clouds pass by without thinking about health
My head make me feel like im on hell on earth
I got a lot i can do but its like i carry a curse
Whenever i think im better
It turns out im getting worse
I could be makin some cheddar
Instead i blow it on pleasure
And instant gratification
Hoping that feeling's amazing
Like a kid getting a present
But now it dont feel that crazy
And everything is so samey and everything is so nothing
Maybe my head is just bluffing to make me feel this
I dont know
Whats the point in trying to find out
When i tried it for so long
Why despite all of my talents
Im making this fucking song
Its the same shit that i wrote and recorded four years ago
About how i got no energy to do nothing but

Dont worry about me im just chillin, chillin