Illuminate Me

[Verse 1:]

I'm always looking over my shoulder these days
I did some bad shit, now I'll take it to the grave
You'll never find it out, no use to investigate
Only higher powers truly know I'm that depraved
A raving lunatic, I be foaming at the mouth
These horrid thoughts inside, but I'm scared to let them out
All these other artists fake, they just do it for the clout
I'm infecting you mentally, digging in your ears now
I speak of crazy shit that I've really fucking seen
Fully loaded clips and powder on a triple beam
Pair of nail clippers taking coating off of beans
Just to melt it in the spoon, injecting it into fiends
Stab it in the elbow, letting loose on the band
All of us got a weapon when we loose out the van
This is shit that I've been through, I ain't proud of it, damn
But you talking bout a race that you never fucking ran

[Chorus:] (x2)

They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But they're not that concealed
They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But I know what they're thinking

[Verse 2:]

You think that you can get me?
You think you'll set me up? That'll really fucking wreck me?
Jokes on you, bitch, I ain't fond of a prison
I'd rather be on the floor, find me dead and unforgiven
'stead of rotting in a cell, I refract you like a prism
Spitting fire out of hell, another Antichrist has risen
I know I'm not doing well, I ain't asking your opinion
I ain't asking for your help, I'm just spelling out my mission
I ain't trynna change the game, I ain't trynna save the world
I ain't trynna dodge the pain, you can take me for a whirl
All I'm asking is to be treated as human fucking being
I know that's asking too much of the greater fucking world
Couldn't make it as a cog so now I'm turning to a storm
Couldn't save my innocence, so the sins start taking form
Been dealing with this sickness since the day that I was born
So I don't want no forgiveness, I just want to take it all

[Chorus:] (x2)

They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But they're not that concealed
They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But I know what they're thinking

[Verse 3:]

They thought they killed me, they thought they got me
They thought they could stop me
But there ain't no stopping this
I'm fucking ready, come on, bring on the apocalypse
Cause I'm ready to die
I got a death wish, okay? Bitch I'm ready to fly
I wanna get my head severed, wanna close my eyes
But I just can't find a man who can take my life
Is there nobody worthy?
Am I doomed to this existence? Is this my fucking purpose?
Illuminate my way, I can't find it, I'm uncertain
Every single fucking day, I'm just lost, I'm just searching
I know you're watching, bitch, and I know what you've been thinking
I bet that you're surprised, thought I couldn't fucking see ya
You ain't all that concealed, now your blood will not congeal
Cause I'm taking a bite up out of your neck when I fucking meet ya

[Chorus:] (x2)

They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But they're not that concealed
They're watching me, they're watching me
They don't think I can see em
They're watching me, they're watching me
But I know what they're thinking