IF MY PARENTS SAW ME NOW

[Intro]
Yo, th-this- this "life" shit is hard as fuck sometimes
That's all I have to say
I will make your corpse dance

[Verse 1]
Everybody always say they wanna die, but they would miss this
The earth, the air, the feelings that’s gon' have you feelin' different
I been gettin’ older, thinkin' bout the shit I've witnessed
A lot of my friends gone, and I created all the distance
I was young, they used to tell me: "Don't do drugs for all your issues"
When crying's not enough, and then you soak through all the tissues
Lookin' from the outside, I don't wanna be in his shoes
'Cause everythin’ is hittin’ harder, and this shit continues
My birthday's in a couple of weeks, I can’t think
Feelin' anxious, cop a bottle and drink
Another bottle in the corner, more blood down the sink
Just to cope with all the pain, because it hurts when I speak

[Chorus]
It's all shit you can't see through the screen
You can’t see I kill myself by smokin' on nicotine
Sometimes I'm up late, and I just wanna scream
'Cause if my parents saw me now, they would think I'm a fiend

[Verse 2]
I don't know how the fuck I'm alive
I been through so much, time after time
And sometimes I zone out, 'cause the past rewinds
And then I think about some shit and end up stuck in my mind
Look, one time I saw a man get shot, I saw a hole in his head
Then that man got popped, he opened up his fuckin' door
Next thing you know, it was cops
There was a shootout on the block, I wanted that shit to stop

[Skit]
You got a little personal there, mister CXRPSE (Oh boy)
Are you okay to go? (Here we fuckin' go again)

[Verse 3]
All my dreams are at the bottom of a bottle
All these fuck-up rappers tryna fuck the finest models (for what?)
I'm just 'tryna stay alive and maybe see tommorow
Because I'm just a human and I know this time is borrowed
And now, in my older days, I wanna see my friends happy
Gettin' overpay, because all this time is limited and so is pain
If depression was a nigga, he should hold this fade