If It’s Not God

[Verse 1]
Be pretty and don't make it look like you're trying
Told to be Esther, when I felt like Goliath
When they were wrong, I could never keep quiet
I searched for the truth, and had faith that I'd find it

[Pre-Chorus]
Set myself on fire
Let myself be the liar

[Chorus]
All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom
'Cause I never understood some types of love being wrong
Something inside me was always steering left
What Father picks a fеw just to leave the rеst?
I heard a voice inside my head, it disagreed
So if it wasn't God, well, thank God it was me
Thank God it was me

[Verse 2]
They called me a sinner when I was a saint
Hiding in her bedroom praying depression away
Killing herself for eternal life
And losing her interest to be a good wife

[Pre-Chorus]
Set myself on fire
I let them call me the liar

[Chorus]
All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom
'Cause I never understood a type of love being wrong
Something inside me was always steering left
What Father picks a few just to leave the rest?
I heard a voice inside my head, they disagreed
So if that wasn't God, if that wasn't God, it was me
Thank God it was me

[Bridge]
Me
Thank God it was me, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
If it was God, then I don't have to worry
He'll know why I left, why I ran in a hurry
So either way I choose, I'm not wasting my life
'Cause the voice in my head has always been right

[Outro]
All the Sundays I worried I'd disappoint my mom
'Cause I never understood a type of love being wrong
Something inside me was always steering left
No father picks a few just to leave the rest