If I’m Honest

[Verse 1]
My bed is so empty
But my bathroom’s full of all the things you use
I remember you loved me
Sitting at a table meant for two
So tell me you need me
Staying up for days awake inside my room
I want you to want me
But you’re moving out and I don’t know what to do

[Chorus]
If I’m honest I don’t know why
You don’t mind
Never seeing me again
‘Cause for me it was the first time
My whole life
Never dreamed that it would end
But then you let me go!

[Verse 2]
God damn it I'm lonely
We built a life together now we're through
And I hope that you're happy
But I pray you never find somebody new
(And you said!)
Baby, none of it had to do with you
None of it had to do with you
Baby, none of it had to, none of it had to
None of it had to do with you

[Chorus]
If I’m honest I don’t know why
You don’t mind
Never seeing me again
‘Cause for me it was the first time
My whole life
Never dreamed that it would end
But then you let me go!
But then you let me go!

[Bridge]
It’s a sick feeling to know
The pit in my stomach
Welcomes me home
‘Cause the one we used to own
Is locked in the catacombs
Boarded and closed
So I’ll just put on some clothes
I’ll get in the shower get ready to go
To the places we used to go
I’ll cross ‘em off one by one I suppose
I’ll buy one of those plants that you used to grow
I’ll save up some money I’ll fix up my home and I’ll
Stay there for months and I’ll stay there for years and I’ll
Strike up some hope for the first time in ages and
I’ll get the strength
To see how you’ve grown
Maybe I’ll be okay
With being alone