If I’m Being Honest

If I'm being honest
I don't want any more problems
What good is all of this knowledge
If I can do nothing bout all this toxic marks
And I never wanted this way no
Can't all of this just go away
And if I can never find peace
Whenever I sleep
Then I guess I am in it to deep
I wanna talk to you
But I'm confused
I mess up so bad
And come to you
Am I really acknowledged
Can you do something about it
All of these
Questions up in my head
Speeding like sonic
Whoo
I ain't tryna mix up
My fix up
But I'm just tryna look at all of my options
And not fall like its autumn

Picking all these pieces somehow I just fell astray
I just feel so lost
In this darkness where I lay
Can I find my own room
Why do I just wonder
They just tell me run your race
But what if I don't want to
Picking all these pieces somehow I just fell astray
I just feel so lost
In this darkness where I lay
Can I find my own room
Why do I just wonder
They just tell me run your race
But what if I don't want to

One thing my journey is not is a loss
Learned a lot from the time we been on this thing
God on our side
We be soaring on eagles wings
My problem might be big
But behind me, got the king
I be hitting that thing
5 stones and a sling
Tryna be faithful
Trustin in him
Praying while drowning
People say chances are slim
But my God is powerful
No will power for a ring
Man I stand my guard
How I bee when I sting
I'm Tryna be the person that God has planned for me
But things get outta hand time to Move to plan B
Moved so many times
Lost Count after 23
Finding a wondrous sign was a mystery
I had to sleep in church just to get up in the morning
And wake up and sing praises while the people still be coming
Crying during worship man I had to let it out
Couldn't Let it fill me up or I was gonna drown
The people got confused like what should I do now (like what should I do now)
I was sinking in it for 3 years
In depression and in doubt
Had to get it all out
All I want to do is shout
On the ground lay flat
Tryna save my soul
Tryna find my way back
But that's all in the old

Picking all these pieces somehow I just fell astray
I just feel so lost
In this darkness where I lay
Can I find my own room
Why do I just wonder
They just tell me run your race
But what if I don't want to
Picking all these pieces somehow I just fell astray
I just feel so lost
In this darkness where I lay
Can I find my own room
Why do I just wonder
They just tell me run your race
But what if I don't want to