​if i love you (demo)

I know if i held you close
You’d be sneaking out the windows while i sleep
I know if i love you so, you’d be starting the car
And leaving me wherever we are
Up and leave everything, travel far
Just to see her, but i’d still take it and that’s the worst part

At a party with you
Everybody’s asking how you are
You drop my hand when she looks at you
Even for you, thats just subpar
I usually brush off stupid shit you do
But when we got to the car
I ask “what was that for?”
Dropping my hand when she looks at you
Just so nobody notices i’m here with you
Do i embarrass you? do you want her too?
What could i do to deserve that? what did i do?

I know if i hеld you close
You’d be sneaking out thе windows while i sleep
I know if i love you so, you’d be starting the car
And leaving me wherever we are
Up and leave everything, travel far
Just to see her, but i’d still take it and that’s the worst part

That night i’m laying with you
Ask you if you’re gonna leave again
I felt the faint skip in heart beat and knew
That the chances weren’t thin
You were going to up and leave to feel her skin
To make her whole world spin
Will this ever break, and when?
Because i don’t even know if can begin
To understand how you have the strength of 1000 men
But to one you care about, you can bare to sin

I know if i held you close
You’d be sneaking out the windows while i sleep
I know if i love you so, you’d be starting the car
And leaving me wherever we are
Up and leave everything, travel far
Just to see her, but i’d still take it and that’s the worst part

I want to love you, but i can’t bare to be the one you do that to
And i don’t want to just say this’ll do
Because i know whatever you do can affect me to
And i don’t want it to harm me more than you
That sounds selfish, i know it too
But you should know, i love you, but i can’t be the one you put that through
Not until you make some changes too

I know if i held you close
You’d be sneaking out the windows while i sleep
I know if i love you so, you’d be starting the car
And leaving me wherever we are
Up and leave everything, travel far
Just to see her, but i’d still take it and that’s the worst part