​if i could go back

Im a prick and i admit it
Prolly shoud of see the signs
She was throwing subtle hints
But i ignored em at the time
But today i went back to the old texts
Just to see what it was like before she detest
Everything i did
Im a dumbass little kid
Man i shouldve payed attention to the things i never did
What tf im even saying when im talking to you
Im pointing out another flaw and i project it on you

Never understood how you could stay with me
Im a bitch i need help
I need therapy
Ive been struggling to love myself
Looking at the mirror i might off myself
So

Tell me what im doing what im doing еveryday
I might pull the fucking trigger
I might pull it any day
And thеy tell me that they love me
But i never really felt it
Every other day is an excuse to climb a mountain
Lately ive been getting really better at this music
Ever since we broke up
Make a beat and then abuse it
I dont even eat not getting sleep its not a problem
Lately ive been focusing on things not at the bottom