​if i can be clear

[Verse]
Where u going
I tend to fuck off in the moment
All of my tears started rolling
All of my feelings are showing
Not that i'm tryna be stoic
I don't not like to be open
Not in the moment and they took advantage
So i find it hard to be open
Trusting is hard when u know that
And talking is hard so just talk fast
Straighten her back
Straighten her hair
Take in it all just be glad u were here
Tryna be clear
U kept me sober for almost a year
U kept me locked up in some kinda fear
But now that i'm numb i just miss all the tears
So heres toast to the jaded
And maybe one more cause im faded
Raising our cups to the wasted potential
I'd say it a was borderline taken
A typical borderline patient
Cause nobody know what i'm saying
My head is not ledgible fuck what im thinking i'd say i'm better off braindead
I am not worth conversation
I feel that i am not changing
Stuck on a loop
All of the same things that i keep replaying
All of the memories that put me in pain
If im feeling fine why i zero the vape
Freezin' my brain
Cause down at my core
I do not wanna relate