​if and when

[Prelude]
I get drunk
I get high (so high)
No thought in my mind
Each day could be
The last I see

[Verse 1]
Head ain't straight
Bed ain't made
Ain't got head in days
But never threw in the mic if it was handed had to do what was right
Even if I′m getting booed tonight I'm getting booed tonight
I′m with my crew tonight
Even just me and Sammy were my crew tonight
I got a life to live say it like I had a wife and kids
And I don't but I won't if this is how my life persists
I gotta wipe them prints
Got to move on let go of the life I lived
I′ve got a bone to pick
I got a zone to get
Ain't you gotta let me hone this shit

[Chorus]
If and when I get my shit together, find my center
Get in my prime
Only time could tell ya
If and when or will this be me till the bitter end
As the gods cry rise my umbrella
Well I prayed for rain, stayed my self, shit don't stay the same
If and when I make a change, stake a claim
If and when I and I won't know till that change is made
Shit I'll try anything to take away the pain

[Verse 2]
Apologetic or not
If you got it I get it
If not I got it
Get out the spot
Dip
You could talk your whole shit
But shit always gotta give the credit to Akh
Salt and pepper with the ketchup on top
For those days that was the only thing my ass would get up and cop
It was bacon egg and cheese or bacon lettuce with the cheddar and pop
Soda on the side but shorty always tryna make eat better and stop
All of the drinkin′ what is she thinkin'
Really what better than shots
Until you get up your head in a knot
No bread in your pocket shit
In bed with a bop

[Verse 3]
Or on the A on the last stop out in Far Rock
Wake up face covered in snot and the place all covered with cops
Yeah that's a ticket now that′s on top
Of all the bridges you burnt when you was all sauced
All of the friends lost, all of the ends gone
Mm mm
But paid the cost to be the boss
Paid the cost to be the don
Who you?
Yeah me motherfucker, the one with no teeth motherfucker
You goin' see
Told the homies growth is key, lock it down throw the key
On these sucker MCs word to mother every word I mutter tryna seize
A single moment and how it seems, a single breeze
The birds and the bees
Here and now you heard it from me
Which version of me do I need
And which is a burden to be
Shit we gonna certainly see

[Chorus]
If and when I get my shit together find my center
Get in my prime
Only time could tell ya
If and when or will this be me till the bitter end
As the gods cry rise my umbrella
Well I prayed for rain, stayed my self, shit don't stay the same
If and when I make a change stake a claim
If and when I and I won't know till that change is made
Shit I ′ll try anything to take away the pain

[Outro]
Let it be, bad bitch
Chemistry, I have this
But savage
Rather, chemically imbalanced
Shit might ruin a life
Shit I ruined mine twice
Left it in ruins
Any advice
Cause I ain't doing shit right