IDK Y IDK [Free Verse]

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Writing every day and every night ( uh huh )
Inspiration from the dark and the light ( uh huh)
Ain't nobody tryna hear me so I fight
With my hands behind my back and my foe has a knife

I look at my life and add up the pain
Divided by love but the math doesn’t average up
Stay in my lane go at my speed
Follow the rules but the fines just keep piling up

What do I do lord tell me
If my enemies don’t kill me then my then my low paying job will
Money in my dreams fire in my heart
From the very start everything so real

So kill kill kill murder murder murder
Sending people to early hell hit em with my burner
Walking down the street feet hurt wish I had a ride
On the bus so much pain when I walk inside

I stay cool like February air
Pick at my nappy hair write raps and then stare
Into the world tryna figure what to do
Everybody getting rich but nobody paying dues

I been broke so long ( so long ) god damnit so long
To the problems and all the people who start em
Starting fresh new slate clean plate
Ima mew man this is my probate

What is my fate what is my purpose
What will you feel when you let your heart heard this
I mean what I say what I say is my bond
But these days the economy bonds are so worthless

We flow and we flow till the rivers no more
From head to toe skin to the bone
Mind to the heart, heart to the world
This here is hard why I don’t know

In love with the pain we have a thing that can’t be broken
When will it change when will it rain the drought is scorching
Burning my passion and dragging it violently
Tryna keep sanity hard as insanity
Family first my homies is second
Mess with the lineup and watch me go hectic

I don’t know why I don’t know
But I know that my will, will get a gold
Will get a plaque will get me out of retail
Will make the world see they flaws in detail

Never sober my mind is drunk on thought of dying
This ain’t rap this me here just really trying
To hold on from saying my so longs
This prayer I hold on has continued to work

Hurt me i want to see you just try
Thirsty for life but why cry
Why try to the guy why try to be the reason
That everybody believing they can do better

Tell me I really wanna know
Really wanna go to place only you go
I wanna see what you your thinking
Let me get pass in the soul hear it speaking

Being broke laughed at and passed over
That’s the motivation to get a Grammy
Dirty clothes no love and cold shoulders
So used to it that it became funny

Pain is common that’s what we share if feel alone
Play this song and understand I’m also gone
Tryna search for dark in all light
I don’t know why but it feel so right