IDEAS ARE BULLETPROOF!

Part I: I NEED JESUS!

[Intro: Unknown Sample]
Yo, [?]
[?] from around the world California dreamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'
I wanna see everybody jumpin' and screamin'

[Chorus]
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wock' with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus

[Verse]
I was sitting in my class when my classmate told me kill myself (Ching-ching)
I said "Very gladly, boy, I'm antsy, so I will go- (Ugh, pew)"
Blow the fuckin' trigger, brains is stained on my bathroom shelf (Yeah, oh no)
Troll like Mr. Bean and massive sadness that's fueling my health (Skrrt, skrrt, skrrt)
I only sleep when the sun's up, I don't givе no fucks (Yeah, yeah)
I fucked this slut up on a sofa, don't еven know her (Yeah, yeah)
Died for my high school diploma, and [?]
Most of my locals are losers or fuckin' posers
Yeah, I made six figures in four months and I ain't even drop a song (Wow)
If you wonderin' why, it's because I'm tryna get strong (Yeah)
Not mentally and physical, every day, I'm tryna evolve
My whole family think I'm crazy, but name one genius who's not
Y'all screamin', "It's so hard," I'm screamin' because I'm lost
This my only form of therapy, I'm often pissed off

[Chorus]
Paint my head with his blood, I need Jesus
Mix my Wock' with some rocks, I need Jesus
Got addictions I can't stop, I need Jesus
My mind a livin' hell, it's hot, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus
I need Jesus, I need Jesus

Part II: RED PILL! VS. BLUE PILL!

[Chorus]
I'm pissed off, I'm fucked up
I took one too much of
This shit that I got from
This kid at the bus stop

[Verse 1]
I'll never forget the first time that I overdosed
Well, I don't remember shit, I ended up in comatose
Second time, they said they found me lifeless, with a bloody nose
Foam comin' out of my mouth, my hand around a bag of coke
Been addicted to pills since I was a young teen
Started off with vitamins, by sixteen, I was a Xan fiend
Doin' ketamine in the bathroom and then the bell rings
Gotta run back to class, but I feel my legs melting (Ugh)
Every time I see my mama cry, I fuckin' hate myself
I know she got her problems, why the fuck can't I contain myself? (Ugh)
My father got way numb to the pain, put that man through hell
I wonder if I'll end up heaven, where are the angels? (Ah)
Well, I have my body rotting, a carcass, I'll even drown myself
To make this pain go away for a second, I would give my wealth
To hands of devils, businessmen that love the death of mental health
The hands of silly sluts that destroy me slowly with skills of stealth (Ah)
Imagine your son dyin' in front your eyes, what you doin'?
Could've fell in love and got a wife, fuck, I blew it
Shit, you wanna kill me, made me cry, fuck he doin'?
Shit, you wanna kill me, made me cry, fuck he doin'?
Imagine your own mama tell you lies
What the fuck is love? 'Cause it's the devil in disguise
Run him in the grave or save him, come help me decide (Yeah)
Pain and sorrow with a welcome mat, I drop aside (Yeah, yeah)
Fuckin' kill him

[Chorus]
I'm pissed off, I'm fucked up
I took one too much of
This shit that I got from
This kid at the bus stop

[Bridge]
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? (What pill did you take?)
What pill did you take? What pill did you take?
What pill did you take?

[Verse 2]
Yeah
My catnip filled with hard drugs (It's me) and lots of skin care products (Wow)
I just bought me a revolver, the solution to problems (Yeah)
Will end immediately if I blow up this old Honda (What? Yeah)
And if he not afraid to pull the trigger, told him "Run up"
"I can't wait for one of my enemies to blow my brains!" Fuck that, I'm ready
I was in a bathtub, bleedin' out, wit' a dirty switchblade, bitch, I'm already ready
I'm in a constant battle with sobriety but still got meds in my belly
I serve Fent' like [?] scale that I walked out with so many
I'm not going to a psych ward again, I'd rather have episodes (Yeah)
When my doctor told me I'm bipolar, I flex my Lexapro
Two-hundred milligrams Zoloft every day, that shit will fuck you, bro (What?)
Still cleanin' up the Volvo that I shattered like three months ago
Mother said reality is 'bout buildin' my own worth (Uh-huh)
But when I would get some money, I'd be happy, now I'm torn
They rip my friends apart, this industry is a dirty whore (Slut)
I see the devil dancin' and you all want to wear his horns
"Fuck your feelings, we just wanna hear you rap, EGO" (Haha)
"You ain't dropped in four months, you smokin' crack, EGO?" (Yeah)
"Why you ain't droppin' "MATTER FACT"? You know you spazzed, EGO!" (Fuckin' spazzed)
Why you wearin' women's clothes? Is you a ***, EGO?
Every time I see a bottle of pills, I can't help myself (Why?)
Lied to my friends, told 'em I'm sober so they don't feel guilt (No, no)
Lied to my own damn bitch about the amount of drugs I ran (Sheesh)
I don't wanna do therapy anymore, that shit don't help (Fuck therapy)
And fuck the pharmaceutical industry, I'll see y'all in hell
I been hatin' rehab in another fuckin' country
I had no human contact or access to my money
Tear my fuckin' mood out to the [?] country
I'm a beast, don't care but it's always been fuck [?] (Yeah)
Stick up for yourself or put your sticks up
They caught me lackin', so my **** time to see God
He was sixty, facin' fifty in the system
This is what society does, we're the victims
Tired of being bullied, so we crop the picture
So now, we gon' stomp on his head, like, "How this feel, nerd?"
I hope this— I hope this—
I cannot describe the things I learned on TNT
I refuse to believe in your false reality
Activate your third eye and question the things you see
Made the decision and now I have PTSD
I wake up sweating in panic attacks, so I don't sleep
My brain chemistry been out of whack since age of fifteen
I'm damaged from chemicals, one of them is 2C-P
I'm running out of options, but the truth is now you see
But I chose to run pills, so I guess that one is on me (Ah)

Part III: KIWI!

[Intro]
(I'm gone)
Gone, I'm gone
I'm gone

[Chorus]
I am falling into darkness
I am falling into darkness
Reflection calms your mind
Reflection calms your mind
Gone, I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
Reflection calms your mind

[Verse 1]
I reminisce while sitting back with some fine wine
Doin' cocaine, it's a long line
But it's a long night, I'm gon' be alright
I know you got your own problems, girl, I got mine
Drown my problems in some meds, know my mom's cryin'
I'm her only fuckin' son and I'm slowly dyin'
This the only thing I got, every day, I'm tryin'
To better myself and then to better my own knowledge
'Cause wisdom work more than money when you turn to a prophet
I'm in a state of confusion, every day, I won't vomit
I got to the turn the fuckin' album in, no time for sobbin'
But it's hard to concentrate on work when you lost in your conscious
I fell in love recently, then I started poppin'
And then I started breakin' trust and I fuckin' lost it
Never thought I would fall in love
Wow, I fell in love

[Chorus]
I am falling into darkness
I am falling into darkness
Reflection calms your mind
Reflection calms your mind

[Verse 2]
You don't even laugh at my jokes anymore
I can tell your smiles are fake and your mind is sore
There's a thousand pictures of me all on your camera roll
I know you only get closer when every minute go
I took five trips to L.A. and you know I cheated
And then I tried to hide the Trojans, goddamn, I'm conceited
And I promise, I love you, you just gotta believe it
But actions speak louder than words, it's the real reason
Yeah, that's the real reason
I ain't mean to stab your back, your heart is so precious
I was ripped up into shreds and layin' on a stretcher
My therapist even told me that I'd never get better
When I had a seizure in that hotel, you was wit' me
Hold my hand, baby, at this rate, I'm slippin' quickly
I can't see past twenty-four, what the fuck is fifty?
But I love you forever, my guardian angel, Kiwi

[Chorus]
Gone, I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
Reflection calms your mind

[Verse 3]
And I'm sorry for the wait, I'm sorry for the wait
"EGODEATH" on the way, and I got another tape
Been battlin' crippling anxiety every day
Take six milligrams of Klonopin just to feel okay
Weekly therapy sessions, every day feel the same
I'm tryna tape her off, but sobriety is a problem
When everything you built burns, but you still evolvin'
I got to slow down on the liquor, know my blood is toxic
I miss when my brothers would call me every single day
I'm fallin' in a hole, this is my cry for escape
I know I'm fucked up, but allow me to convey
This is the carols of madness that run through my brain, yeah

[Chorus]
Gone, I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
I'm gone, I'm
Reflection calms your mind

[Outro]
My genius is genuine love
And passion for everything I do
And towards everyone that I love
It's just often misinterpreted as evil
But I'm not a villain
But I'm no hero or role model either
I-I've been stuck in my head with no route of escape
But it's the highest form of self-introspection
I've ever felt in my life
I've accepted the truth, the beauty behind my chaos
And trust me, I hate myself
More than anyone else ever could
I don't think I ever have loved myself
And I'm tired of putting on a false narrative that I'm happy
All I do is cause pain and destroy everything I love
And I'm so fuckin' sorry
I love you forever

Part IV: V FOR VENDETTA!

[Intro]
Die, why won't you die? Why won't you die?
Beneath this mask, there is more than flesh
Beneath this mask, there is an idea, Mr. Creedy
And ideas are bulletproof
Skrrt
Shoot
Fuck
Fuck, fuck, fuck (Woo)

[Chorus]
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off wit' his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds ([?])
I don't give a fuck, bitch, I'll do this shit again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead! (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off wit' his head!
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds!
I don't give a fuck, bitch, I'll do this shit again!

[Verse]
Fuck, I just overdosed again (Fuck, fuck, what?)
This my seventh time in the hospital, been just makin' M's (Yeah, yeah, [?])
Startin' to believe there's a God, if there wasn't, I'd be dead
In and out of rehab so damn long, convinced there's no effect ([?])
I'm a leader, not a follower, you'll always be a sheep (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'm not violent, but psychotic and wanna start killing things ([?])
I can call a fuckin' army, and have his head severed [?] ([?])
Then we mail it to his mother's house so she can feel my grief ([?])
Told my family when I die, they better moshpit
.45 made him log off, he didn't block shit
I get emails and they wrapped around my mopstick
I been off molly for five days, I'm exhausted!

[Chorus]
Smell that? Another opp dead (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off wit' his head (R.I.P.)
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds ([?])
I don't give a fuck, bitch, I'll do this shit again (I will)
Smell that? Another opp dead! (Yes)
Four hollow tips, then it's off wit' his head!
I been off the rocker, I forgot to take my meds!
I don't give a fuck, bitch, I'll do this shit again!

PART V: NIGHT BEFORE EGODEATH

[Intro: EGOVERT & Billy Joel]
Um, when I was younger
My dad used to sing "Slow down, you crazy child
So ambitious for a juvenile"
"You're so strong" What'd he say? "You're so smart
Tell me, why are you still so afraid?"
Hehehe, and yeah, I-I miss him
I miss the relationship I had with him
I miss everything
Fuck

[Refrain: Billy Joel]
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're oh so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? Mmm

[Interlude]
Look, love [?] Dallas, [?]
4:47 AM
Don't grow up too quick, I wish I couldn't
You're not alone

[Verse 1]
I had people's careers I made in like two months
To me nothing except a feature and two blunts
And now, they slander my name and want me to get hurt
But none of this would be possible if I didn't pick the mic first
Keep your friends close, your enemies tightest
I stay out of the mix, gettin' too rich for the violence
Bunch of pussies jumped and pistol whipped me, learned my lesson
So I can't leave my house without my fuckin' brothers and some weapons, yeah
I had bought tickets for my friends, so we'd go to L.A.​
I gave 'em houses and gave 'em clothes and gave 'em money, bank
And now they throwin' subs at me, but I won't get in the way
They postin' videos on Internet, they throwin' me shade
Knowin' they won't ever touch the level I'm 'bout to break
Tired of bein' quiet, fuck that, I got somethin' to say
Just let the numbers speak, lil' boy, now I pick up your pace
The way I'm goin' right now, I'm gon' be one of the greats

[Refrain: Billy Joel]
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're oh so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? Mmm

[Verse 2]
Can't even go to the mall wit'out fans takin' no pictures
Fuck bein' locally famous, I'm paintin' bigger pictures
Pre-writing ancient scriptures and breaking all your traditions
I got a legacy to leave behind when I'm diminished
But I'm nowhere close to finished, hungrier than the beginnin'
I'm supposed to be on the road, tourin' on a sprinter
Instead of sittin' in my bed, drinkin' hard liquor
And writin' some hard lyrics, hopin' that you all feel it
Yeah, yeah, I hope you all feel it
'Cause even I be havin' trouble lookin' in the mirror
And realizin' things won't ever be the same, not appearance
And I ain't even have no friends or drugs to help me wit' it
But I wrote this song sober for a clearer vision
Friends take advantage of my finical positions
I can tell my brothers know because they still my brothers
Tried to put him on the game, but he still stuck up in his system
I had a girl in **** hit me up the other day
I asked her to homecomin' in like eleventh grade
She shot me down and spat my heart apart in seven places
And now she ask me to take her out, I said "Okay, bae"
Wow, why I do that?
Comes to validation, always need to fuckin' prove that
I give 'em memories that last, to leave alone, I tend to do that
I make 'em fall in love and do the same shit that she do back, yeah
Women peepin' the way that I'm movin' differently
They want me to come to their parties, but I'm rich, you see
Think about when they bullied me in high school
Now the same bum-broke pussies say they fuck with me
Oh, and your girlfriend seems to be in love with me
She let me fuck her raw upon your table centerpiece
Sorry, brother, I can drop her back, it's no stress
Nothin' personal, your bitch is just now my bitch
Baby, I can show you better things than he could do
Show you lifestyles you could become addicted to
Debit card swipes, highest fashion avenues
Three-hundred on dinner, baby, that's nothing, like, what's the move?
Only peace I find is when I roll up in the morning
Wakin' up, sweatin' season from Xanax withdrawals
Got my shit together quickly, said "Fuck you" to college
Saw my mama cry twice, turned me to a monster
Now I treat her real nice, ordered shrimp and lobsters
And shouts out to the mobsters, my Blood and Crip brothers
That will kill others, wit'out blinkin' they eye
I'm workin' hard to get 'em out and make sure that they fine
And R.I.P. to Zecky, fly high, baby, fly
I miss you more every day, I wish it was me instead
All this money, all these women, they don't really matter
The void inside my fuckin' soul will forever be damaged
Only solution I see is for my brain to splatter
But I can't kill myself yet, I ain't drop my album

[Outro: EGOVERT & Billy Joel]
Yeah
I can't kill myself yet, I ain't even drop my album
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? Mmm
Slow down, you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? Mmm
Would you please talk about what you refer to as a psychic death
Also called an egodeath?
That's what happens when someone you love betrays you (Betrays you)