I Wonder Why

Why life's never the story you wish?
Why life don't give you more than you give?
You can't deny you have to carry on
Feels so strong, I keep holding on

I'm recallin' them days like it was only yesterday
Stargaze, wonderin'; will I be front page?
Will I live to see my grandkids or die at young age?
Will I be hot like the sun and find a spot in the shade?
I kept the faith, I knew there would be days like this
I never doubt my own abilities (Brother you wish!)
Storm this biz, the rhyme and the beat would never clash
Cause music was my first love and it'll be my last
Even as a kid when I couldn't even write
I would make up some songs and use my thumb for a mic
Pretend there was a crowd, I was the star of the show
But moms came in my room so it was time for me to go
I had a rough time growin' up with my moms
I don't care for my pops 'cause we never had a bond
He's far gone, I'm stronger because of you
Stronger than you, I pay dues, I win, you lose
I wonder why

Why life's never the story you wish?
Why life don't give you more than you give? (And no you can't deny)
You can't deny you have to carry on
Feels so strong, I keep holding on

Y'all remember me, when my name still wasn't free
When we all had to get down in the place to be
When we had this little crew called DSP
Before you went to see the doctor with Kool Moe Dee
It was all new to me, behind mic standin'
Never stayed dancin', basketball sneakers with tight pants and
No doubt, we was movin' the crowd, had 'nuff styles
The minute we hit the spotlights, we turn the party out
It wasn't all good back then, we did a little somethin'
A little hustlin', a little snow cuttin', cops fronting
But rap took me outta there
I look around I see none of my peers, they outta here
I wonder why

Why life's never the story you wish? (You wonder why)
Why life don't give you more than you give
You can't deny you have to carry on (Say what)
Feels so strong, I keep holding on

Now here's the deal
Look how fast these times went by
91 I'm hookin' up with [?]
Since then we fly high, you're lookin' up in the sky
See us passin' by, we mark the start of an era
It's all clearer, you in the rear-a, stop frontin'
And use your head, it's the committee spreadin' lead
And puttin' heads to bed
Why you'll be on the verge of madness we takin' trips to Miami instead
I'll be gunslingin' (until the signs start singing)
One of the horsemen, I'll rock the 100 grand pin in
And rock that fly linen what the fuck was you thinking
Your eyes blinkin', I wonder why

Why life's never the story you wish? (You wonder why)
Why life don't give you more than you give
You can't deny you have to carry on
Feels so strong, I keep holding on

Why life's never the story you wish? (You wonder why)
Why life don't give you more than you give (You can't deny)
You can't deny you have to carry on (Say what)
Feels so strong, (No doubt) I keep holding on