I Wonder

[Hook]
I wonder how it came to this
Out of gas, with nowhere to turn
With the torch still in my hand
I stand and watch it burn
As my lungs fill with ashes
Feel the wind as it fans the flames
Hear a voice inside my head
Nothing ventured, nothing gained

[Verse 1]
I wonder how it came to this
Wonder when I lost my art
I wonder how I lost my passion
Lost my vision, lost that spark
Once upon a time, there was a raging fire, but now that's dark
Now that's dark, press restart
I got so lost and forgot my heart
I got buried by every promise I broke
Every empty line that I wrote
Now this game feels like a noose on my throat
With a crowd that cheers me on as I choke
I can't breathe, but I can't stop now
'Cause I got fans that I can't let down
And dreams that I'm not done chasing
And people that I love that I ain't made proud
I look in the mirror, and I don't recognize the person I see
But people that I've never met in my life see me on the street and can recognize me
How can that be?
People know me more than I know myself
I guess it's ironic they call me the Devil
'Cause I'm so damn tired of livin' in hell
When did I get so old?
When did I get so jaded?
When did it stop being fun, and turn into labor?
I love it so much that I hate it
I'm so tired...
So tired of being overlooked and underrated
I can't take it
How much more can this game take away from me before I make it!?!
AAAGGHHH!

[Hook]
I wonder how it came to this
Out of gas, with nowhere to turn
With the torch still in my hand
I stand and watch it burn
As my lungs fill with ashes
Feel the wind as it fans the flames
Hear a voice inside my head
Nothing ventured, nothing gained

[Verse 2]
I wonder how it came to this
Wonder when I lost my voice
I wonder when I stopped believing
Yeah, I wonder if I had a choice
Once upon a time, I had the power to rise above that noise
But that's destroyed, that's destroyed
And I don't know how to fill that void
When did everything get confused?
Everything's all about the views
About the streams, about the plays, about the hype
It's all a ruse!
Where's the truth? I used to know
But I got lost in my pursuit
In my youth, I got lost in music
Now I just get lost in booze
It was so simple before
I would just sit and record
I wasn't worried 'bout writin' a hit
I was just focused on tellin' my story
But now there's a little bit more on the line
'Cause I ain't the same little kid anymore
While all my homies are gettin' degrees
But music is my one and only resort
I can't afford to fail, I can't afford to fall
I can't afford to bail
I can't afford to lose everything that I've built
Yeah...this shit is all that I have
This shit is all that I know
All of my chips are down on this hand
Yeah, I can't afford to fold! No!

[Hook]
I wonder how it came to this
Out of gas, with nowhere to turn
With the torch still in my hand
I stand and watch it burn
As my lungs fill with ashes
Feel the wind as it fans the flames
Hear a voice inside my head
Nothing ventured, nothing gained