I WONDER (A Poem From Jail)

[Verse:]
I Wonder if my minds gonna crumble between these walls
Well if it does, kill me for I am not who I was
Bloody lips basically licking my torn skin
Stings me when I smile, it's one of just many trials
Thinking all suicidal are thoughts I tend to recycle
I know my Grandma wishes I’d open a damn bible
Religion can often be a way to escape the pain
Well where's your God when you be suffering day to day?
When your holding a razorblade
Controlling which way it sways
Almost did it but hoping you drop it and walk away
Know what they say
"What doesn't kill you it makes you stronger"
Well I’m not fucking myself so I live longer