The songs follows an E.R. physician as she struggles to cope with the emotional distress of trauma treatment, as well as the state of the U.S. healthcare system.
[Verse 1]
In the cold of night
Stay at the heart of it
I feel the love so
I was holding on
Pray, I was scared of me
You, but the time is right
'Cause in my heart I'll do the same for you
[Pre-Chorus]
If the night is for the day
You won't see the last of me
Stay warm 'cause the rain
Will come through
[Chorus]
I wish I could be better
I wish I could do better
I hope these things won't matter
I'll be longing for peace anew
[Verse 2]
When the highs are low
You better go
You barely hold the reins
When the light goes down
I'll let it shine
You see it's all a game
On the highest plane
Of a fool who's lost the tracks again
'Cause in my heart I'll do the same for you
[Pre-Chorus]
If the night is for the day
You won't see the last of me
Stay warm 'cause the rain
Will come through
[Chorus]
I wish I could be better
I wish I could do better
I hope these things won't matter
I'll be longing for peace anew
[Bridge]
High up in the clouds
Moving like a spinwheel
Closer to the sky
I will feel the sorrow
But the night is full of day
I'mma hold on to life
I won't wait on this slope in the way
Wait in this hopeless life
Wait in this lonely life
I won't be the best of me
[Chorus]
I wish I could be better
I wish I could do better
I hope this stays for better
I'll be longing for peace anew
[Post-Chorus]
'Cause the night is for the day
I can see the rest of me
Hopin' the light is the only way I'll fly
I Wish I Could was written by Birsen Uçar & Selah Sue & TOKiMONSTA.
I Wish I Could was produced by TOKiMONSTA.
TOKiMONSTA released I Wish I Could on Fri Oct 06 2017.
TOKiMONSTA revealed this was the first song she created after recovering from brain surgery.