I Will Struggle

I'm wide awake
I know the truth
Some people are poisoned and I'm the proof
I hear the voice inside that says
Everyone is beautiful but you

One mind, any weapon
I'm in heaven
My nerves start to deaden
Everything is the same to me
When I let go
I become who I might be
Why do I hate what they love?
My insecurities and everything I'm made of
I'm okay with being something I'm not
We live
We die
We rot

Every single day
I will struggle
To just be happy again
To feel normal
I know I'm in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one?
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
I'm in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one

I hate myself
I want to die
I can't find meaning in this life
I never asked to be alive
And I don't think I was born to survive

The needle breaks the skin
I feel it sinking in
My god
What have I done?
My mother's only son
I'm far from invincible
And some days I feel invisible

Every single day
I will struggle
To just be happy again
To feel normal
I know I'm in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one?
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
I'm in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one

Life is so hard
But we share the same struggle
They say
Better a live coward than a dead hero
I thought I was chosen
But really I am broken
I'm fragile
I could break at any moment

Don't be like me
Oh
Don't be like me
If you know there is hope
Set yourself free

If the good die young
Then I'll be around for a lifetime
If the good die young
Then I'll be around for a lifetime

Don't be like me
Don't find comfort in the places I go
I'm too scared to look in a mirror
Too afraid to live
But too cowardly to die
I'm selfish
I'm a liar
I'm flawed
I can't control my anger
I can't face my appearance
I can't love the right way
But it's time to face the truth
I will struggle
Every day for the rest of my life

And I'll always
In every way
And every day
I will struggle
And I'll always
In every way
And every day
I will struggle
And I'll always
In every way
And every day
I will struggle
And I'll always
In every way
And every day
I will struggle