I Was On Your Side

I've been acting different lately
You said "Ethan, why do you hate me?"
We all need a little hatred
Once in a while

I've made one for you to holler
You said "Ethan, why do you bother?"
Oh why do you let me suffer?
Have you forsaken me?

Why do I always feel so guilty?
I'm a loser won't you kill me?
All my life you're smiling coldly
Would you just let me go?

What I'd give for a little atonement
I must look so fucking boneless

Oh why do you make me hold this
It's much too heavy

I was looking through the stars in the night
I'm wondering if one of them was you
The reaper's looking art my name in his book
I bet he's counting down the grains of sand
He's waiting patiently to take my hand
He's gonna take me to the creek with you
Does he know that I was on your side?
Can he see that I was on your side?