I Was Lying

[Chorus]
I wish I could reconcile
'Cause deep inside I'm dyin'
So I put on a smile
And I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin'
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'

[Verse 1]
I'm from a small place but got big dreams
Idolizin' people on the big screen
Left home when I was likе fifteen
I ain't never think my mom would get clеan
Yeah, the shit seem way better
When you on the outside lookin' in, don't it?
More money bring more problems
Can't trust family, your friends foldin'
That's real, devil been testin' me
Still pursuin' my destiny
And I still pray multiple times of the day
But I am so far from heavenly
I got so much hate in my heart
The thoughts in my brain are too dark
Some of these dudes who claimin' they with you
Are really against you and you are they mark
Let me tell you, loyalty is rare
Ain't nobody tell you life was gon' be fair
Can't depend on one person but one person
That's the person you see in the mirror
But tell 'em beware, because you are your own worst enemy
Somethin' an old G said to me
I took the wrong roads so long
I just hope that you know that I'm [?]

[Chorus]
I wish I could reconcile
'Cause deep inside I'm dyin'
So I put on a smile
And I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin'
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'

[Verse 2]
[?] of what life is
I don't wanna be the bad guy, I'm just like this, yeah
Family reunions, was never invited
Believe me, when no one believed in me, I did
We been misguided, environment filthy
Tryna get up out of this life before it kill me
Layin low, over three weeks sober
That's an accomplishment, but hell, y'all don't feel me
I used to tell anyone that would listen that
I'me be rich and, yeah, I'ma be famous
Lot of setbacks in my past, can't change 'em
Playin' with somebody's heart, that's dangerous
People tell me I'm chosen
How the hell when I'm broken?
My heart is so frozen
Never know what tomorrow is holdin'
I know that I'm lonely
I can only count on me
My trust has been stolen
Leave it, no matter which way that I'm goin'
Put on this smile but live with regrets
Put on this shine, no one to impress
All this time I pretend that I'm fine
I'm manic depressed (Manic depressed)

[Bridge]
Bartender, won't you pour me another one
It's the middle of the night and it's rainin' outside
I thought that last one woulda made me forget
That I done so much wrong in my life, I could never make it alright

[Chorus]
I wish I could reconcile
'Cause deep inside I'm dyin'
So I put on a smile
And I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin'
I'm just another screwup
Baby, don't waste your time
I told you it'd be different
But we knew I was lyin', yeah
We knew I was lyin'