I wanna love but im hurt

(verse)
You wanna know how i feel?
Still ask my spirit whats real
Red in my eyes i wanna kill
Surround my head with these deals

Hear youre name give me chills
Still struggle find my next meal
Demons attached to the heels
Engulfed in flames what i feel

Amiri gucci spend fast
I won't go back to the past
Fuck me and fuck what i had
I left it all and im glad

You let me fall with no pad
But i can't trip about that
We both got trauma thats bad
Program our brains to be sad

(bridge)
Hurt eachother
Yelling screaming we burn eachother
Fight another
Drugs, pills, ill take another
Tires screeching im nodding off while im burning rubber
Tires screech and im nodding off while im burning

Hurt eachother
Hit pain
Ill sing another
Sign another
Henny bottle ill slam another
All yall round me where were you when i was in the gutter
How you want me around you but we can't trust eachother?

(verse 2)
You want me dead i can't get it
Im just a product admit it
Admit myself to these lyrics
Admit myself to this healing
Commit myself to this prison
Commit myself to these millions
Ill break myself to rebuild me
Break myself to rebuild me

Ask for time i can't swap
Youre bracelet isnt my watch
Im still not watching the clock
Im still not missing the guap
Can't leave my house with no Glock
Whats mom gon do i get killed
Whats that gon to do my pops?

(verse 3)
Where were you when was drowning up and couldn't float?
Where were you when it was rain in vegas ain't have a coat?
Looking back i wish i wouldve known

I wanna love but im hurt
I wanna hurt but im cursed
Just know this isnt the last
I know this wasn't the first
Ive lived this life a few times
And everytime i get hurt
Tryna run from the dirt
Im tryna outbreak my curse. (shh)