I wanna drive myself sane

You came to me in a dream last night
We were together for a moment, then I opened my eyes
I don't wanna wake up in this world if you're not in it
I'd rather stay in bed and fake it five more minutes

I thought I was doing alright
But I have this emptiness eating my insides
I can't make you feel what I'm feeling
I can't love myself and I can't stop you from leaving
I can't stop you from leaving

I wanna feel I'm enough for once
I wanna think I'm as good as you are
Good as you are

I still feel the touch of your hands
And it kills me to know it's never coming back
I wish I could be your friend but I just wanna kiss you
I wish I could stop thinking about how much I miss you
I wish I didn't miss you

I wanna feel I'm enough for once
I wanna think I'm as good as you are
Good as you are

It's infecting my brain
It's growing, the pain
And I thought this was going to last much longer
That we belonged together, but that's just my infatuation growing
Don't know which part of my brain is speaking
But I was trying my best, I wanted to look pretty
I wanted to be sane for you
But I guess I can't make that for anyone but me
I guess I can't expect you to like me when I can't even do it myself
I'm sorry to be rude, but I swear I'm trying my best