“i tried everything” is a depression-filled track by Foster and producer Zaini utilizing the demo track “Can’t Get Happy” by indie artist Kailee Morgue. Foster considers it his most personal release to date, as it describes his battles with depersonalization-derealization disorder and how his effort...
[Chorus: Kailee Morgue, with Foster, Foster]
I swear I've tried everything
Cut the coffee for some tea
Cutting friends off who were mean
And I tried to get more sleep (Yeah)
[Verse 1: Foster, with Kailee Morgue, Kailee Morgue]
I swear I tried everything they said's supposed to work (Cut the coffee for some tea)
How come no one told me as a kid that life's supposed to hurt? (Cutting friends off who were mean)
Yeah, I heard that better days are right around the corner, but (And I tried to gеt more sleep)
I peaked around it just to find out that I'm sort of fuckеd (I swear I tried everything)
So now I walk around emotionless, a hopeless mess (Cut the coffee for some tea)
Drownin' in this hopelessness
Pretendin' that I'm swimmin', let's see how long I can hold my breath (Cutting friends off who were mean)
Before I hit the bottom floor
Hide away and lock my door (And I tried to get more sleep)
And overthink my problems more
[Pre-Chorus: Foster, Kailee Morgue]
I just don't know why it's just gotta be this hard to exist (But the roots are planted so deep)
There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced (Do you think that you could love me?)
[Chorus: Foster, with Kailee Morgue]
'Cause I swear that I tried everything (Everything, everything)
Cut the coffee for some tea (For some tea, for some tea)
Cutting friends off 'cause they're mean (Who were mean, who were mean)
And I tried to get more sleep (Get more sleep, get more sleep) (Yeah)
[Verse 2: Foster, with Kailee Morgue, Kailee Morgue]
I swear I tried everything and haven't seen a result (Cut the coffee for some tea)
Wish I could go back to my teens, don't want to be an adult (Cutting friends off who were mean)
My life just isn't how it seemed it'd be when I was a kid (And I tried to get more sleep)
Now when I wake up from my dreams, I wish that I never woke
'Cause they're so vivid (I swear I tried everything)
But the second I get out of bed, I watch it fade to monotone (Cut the coffee for some tea)
Surrounded by the ones I love, but in my head, I'm all alone (Cutting friends off who were mean)
I put my phone on silent, take a walk, and then it starts to rain (And I tried to get more sleep)
Coincidence, but ever since it happened, haven't been the same
[Pre-Chorus: Foster, Kailee Morgue]
Why it's just gotta be this hard to exist? (But the roots are planted so deep)
There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced (Do you think that you could love me?)
[Chorus: Foster, with Kailee Morgue]
'Cause I swear that I tried everything (Everything, everything)
Cut the coffee for some tea (For some tea, for some tea)
Cutting friends off 'cause they're mean (Who were mean, who were mean)
And I tried to get more sleep (Get more sleep, get more sleep) (Yeah)
[Verse 3: Foster, with Kailee Morgue, Kailee Morgue]
(I swear I tried every–)
I swear I tried it all, got better sleep
Had therapy two times a week (Cut the coffee for some tea)
I hit a wall and I broke to pieces
Still ain't gotten back on my feet (Cutting friends off who were mean)
I don't recall feelin' like myself
This medication I'm on's no help (And I tried to get more sleep)
I tried to hide how I feel inside
But I'm losing grip on my mental health (Whoa)
[Pre-Chorus: Foster, Kailee Morgue]
Why it's just gotta be this hard to exist? (But the roots are planted so deep)
There's nothing left that I can do to help, I'm convinced (Do you think that you could love me?)
[Chorus: Foster, with Kailee Morgue]
'Cause I swear that I tried everything (I tried everything, I swear, yeah)
Cut the coffee for some tea (I tried everything, I swear, yeah)
Cutting friends off who were mean (I don't know what else to do)
And I tried to get more sleep (Get more sleep, get more sleep)
[Outro: Kailee Morgue]
But the roots are planted so deep
Do you think that you could love me?
i tried everything was written by Kailee Morgue & Foster & Zaini.
i tried everything was produced by Zaini.
Foster released i tried everything on Fri Feb 11 2022.
Foster via Variance Magazine interview:
‘i tried everything’ has a special place in my heart. I’ve had an especially rough past year regarding my mental health and this song is exactly how I feel, both lyrically and sonically. On the outside, it’s a playful sounding track, but the inside is filled...