I Still Love You Freestyle

[Verse 1]
And I love you more than words can explain
I just thought through everything, I'd be deserving the same
I know some people who would hurt me, for their personal gain
But I'm so optimistic, that I think they're worthy to change
Almost 21 and haven't found the love of my life
And I may never find it now, I guess my cousin was right
About these women wantin' men, who've been on dozens of flights
That type of life ain't gettin' my mama through her troubling nights
But when you have a helpful spirit, you attract some damaged souls
She was brokеn deep inside, with a body like Amber Rosе
And I done, lost count of the times that I've traveled abandoned roads
Handling things in secrecy, I know I can't expose
My dad been having talks with me about the men I ought to be
And how the people I've invested time into been costin' me
Relationships are always helpful when you lost at sea
But if it's costin' me my life, I guess it's not as free

[Bridge]
But I still care and I still love you
But it's not fair, when I can't trust you, to be here, for me
But I still care and I still love you
But it's not fair, when I can't trust you, to be here

[Verse 2]
And JayDaYoungan just got gunned down in his hometown
It got me anxious and paranoid, just to roam around
But I can't be living in fear
At times I cried myself to sleep, wishing my mission was clear
Been dealing with the same thoughts, the only difference is years
It's hard to have a drive for something, I keep switchin' the gears
It's like a, epiphany here and a epiphany there
I hope my brothers keep me lifted in prayer
I do the same for my enemies and relationships I didn't repair
The more I age, the more I'm gettin' aware
Am I officially scarred or just officially scared?
I learned it isn't always satisfying fixing a player