I Stay 4?

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel like turning away from everything that I know
Cos I can wake up today and see a fork in road
But then it takes me to say, I gotta get a good hold
On everything that I prayed for
Cos I played for the chance to win the life and everything I was made for
So why it got me feeling like my train is delayed for?
Thinking of disappearing like I'm going away for... (how long?)
But I stay for… (for what?)

[Verse 1]
For all the peeps in my life that need me
Especially when they are finding that life ain't easy
I could compare it to them losing their sight completely
Can't see the writings on the wall it ain't like graffiti
I try to tell em' bout the things I feel might defeat me
And show em' how I overcome cos they might believe me
But they ain't know about my pain cos I'm quite discreetly
Standing on the shoulders of everything right beneath me
But it can feel like it's too much
Energy is depleted my resources got used up
And all I really want is my momentum to boost up
But looking in the mirror my reflection's like, "you suck"
And shopping ain't the answer, I ain't buying some new stuff
What is the point in owning something I get no use from?
Cos’ all I see is the need for something that's really different
Like an unplanned detour

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel like turning away from everything that I know
Cos I can wake up today and see a fork in road
But then it takes me to say, I gotta get a good hold
On everything that I prayed for
Cos I played for the chance to win the life and everything I was made for
So why it got me feeling like my train is delayed for?
Thinking of disappearing like I'm going away for... (how long?)
But I stay for… (for what?)

[Verse 2]
Because I guess I don't like change
And everything I'm looking for is out of my price range
And I don't wanna worry all my friends and my family
And make em' get mad at me for leaving so rapidly
I got responsibilities and other commitments
Impossible to handle them if I'm at a distance
And tell me what I'm gonna do with little subsistence?
And I am so familiar with my current existence
And could it be I only need a little assistance
Some positivity that I can see is consistent
I guess I should continue with a little persistence
And don't be quick to give up when I hit some resistance
And try and keep my head up and to practice resilience
But I am sick and tired of societies’ systems
So all I see is the need for something that's really different
Like an unplanned detour

[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel like turning away from everything that I know
Cos I can wake up today and see a fork in road
But then it takes me to say, I gotta get a good hold
On everything that I prayed for
Cos I played for the chance to win the life and everything I was made for
So why it got me feeling like my train is delayed for?
Thinking of disappearing like I'm going away for... (how long?)
But I stay for… (for what?)

Sometimes I feel like turning away from everything that I know
Cos I can wake up today and see a fork in road
But then it takes me to say, I gotta get a good hold
On everything that I prayed for
Cos I played for the chance to win the life and everything I was made for
So why it got me feeling like my train is delayed for?
Thinking of disappearing like I'm going away for... (how long?)
But I stay for… (for what?)

[Monologue Outro]
“You win some and you lose some… I guess the trick is figuring out which is which. Sometimes you'll only ever know in hindsight… and at other times, you'll see those potential victories, or losses from a mile away, like an eagle in the sky. We've all probably felt that we've bitten of more than we can chew; sometimes just by being here… and most of us may have felt at some point, to just get up and leave everything behind, to start afresh. So what stops us? Is it that we're too conditioned by our circumstances that anything outside of what we know is too scary to want to know. So we endure the pain... those promises that never mature, and the people who we burden or burden us. If life, and people, and opportunity were all represented by two sides of a coin, why does one side seam to overwhelmingly land more than the other when flipped? It probably doesn't, we're just so used to seeing the side of the coin we dislike most, we still see it even when the other side drops. Lets change. Blackcurrent Jazz”