I saw this girl

I've been freaking out in this random Bn'B
Cheap towels and smoking fees
Yeah this gets two stars from me
I disassociate every time I look at my feed
My stretched expectancies
And outcome dependency

I saw this girl, I saw this girl
I saw this girl, I saw this girl
(she was pretty cute)

When I was younger my eyes had big cartoony sparkles
My heart was always on my sleeve
When I was younger all I wanted was to be older
But it isn't like what it seems
And I just feel like it's all too much for me
What I wanted didn't do much for me
I have such a hard time with the simplest things
I don't think I'm tryna do 23

But I saw this girl, I saw this girl
I saw this girl, I saw this girl

I'm who I am
I'm in the crowd like I'm not even there
Bury my head in the sand, hold my hand
Bury my head in some random YouTube essay
I'll just forget in a few days at best
Buried deep down in the core of my chest
I keep my skeletons and marionettes
How come it's so hard to just make a friend?
I'm on the bend with my new common sense

Is there something? Is there something?
Is there something? Is there something?

I'm my own darkest of doubts
Where you let me down
You left me out
You make my heart do jumps and spin around
Put my head down
Head in the clouds
Deep in the ground
When I was just 20 my friend
Took too much and overdosed in her bed
I haven't touched any opiates since
Sometimes this cruel world don't make any sense