I Only Watch Scary Movies

[Verse 1]
Watching strangers on the subway
Wonder if they feel the same
Can't imagine loving Sundays, I guess I just can't relate
I don't want your lonely company
'Cause I'm not gonna fake a smile for free
The more I laugh I drain my battery
Pushing feelings never been for me

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause when it's dark and I'm alone
That's what tends to feel the most like home
It's not hopeless, it's the way I cope
I like the movies where the people die the most

[Chorus]
I only watch scary movies
Fantasize about the grave
I don't think jokes are funny
Hugs and kisses bring me pain
I stay inside when it's sunny
I don't dance in the rain
I only watch scary movies
It's not tragic, it's my brain

[Verse 2]
The patterns are predictable
I've made my peace with feeling miserable
Sometimes it's weaker, but it's always there
I'm not saying I don't think it's fair
I'm not accepting defeat if I don't wanna hear your condescending version of it, always gets better
It's not that I don't believe you
I've been trying but your sympathy is making my head hurt
I'm always hurting, but I'm happy this way
Learned how to stay alive since a young age
Don't mean to scare you cause I promise I'll stay
But it's the reason why I'm not afraid

[Pre-Chorus]
When it's dark and I'm alone
That's what tends to feel the most like home
It's not hopeless, it’s the way I cope
I like the movies where the people die the most

[Chorus]
I only watch scary movies
Fantasize about the grave
I don’t think jokes are funny
Hugs and kisses bring me pain
I stay inside when it’s sunny
I don’t dance in the rain
I only watch scary movies
It's not tragic, it's my brain