I Never

Never paid or could afford attention for the people that I don't like
Tired of trying to smite my own lows but im froze like Everest mountaintops on cold nights
That's pain all up in my crown to the extent where I can't won't write
Grew with expectations and to be honest with you that shit was a misfortune
But I should just concentrate like OJ Juice in the courtroom
For you, I only wish gratitude and nothing will come back to haunt You
But wish for me
Because all I got is a need for a piece of mind to have and a monkey On my back to flaunt too
Don't tempt me
Tempers shorter then Pistorius and his sentence
Because I run from mistakes like a caught out historian and oh did I Mention
I'm the sickest in this terror dome
At some point I'll be running out of things to reference like a future 2020 Simpsons episode
I'm groaning and coming to slaughter like Howlin' wolf When he met Muddy Waters
Or only to give you a shimmer of light like the sun in Autumn
Ive done an caught ya
Like when Canubis said he read through your Footnotes
You can see the real reactions when there's casings of bullets on The floor and Gun smoke
So whether its fake chatter or nervousness just know that's a thing A fraud would commonly do
But through thick and thin I won't be laughing like a deaf or dead person listening to a comedy group
Dealing with highs and lows like its my personal solstice but I solicit through
Give my uncles and cousins the world is something I will solemnly do