I need your help, dont go

[verse]
Feel like I'm always lost in my mind
Everyday I am just wasting my time
Can't explain what I am feeling inside
It hurts too much, I cannot bear with the pain
All my love stories be ending the same
Ending with tears running down on my face
They love to play with me like I'm a game
Heart turned cold, I cannot love anymore
Sorry but it's not my fault
If you love me I just need you to stop
I can't feel love cuz my heart just went numb
I really tried but it wasn't enough
I need your help so please don't go
You gotta understand what you 'bout to be told
Everyday I just be faking my smiles
Haven't had a genuine one in a while
Right now i'm spitting my heart in this song
This the most realest one that I've done
Forgive me if I ever did you wrong
Know that i'm not in a good state of mind
I'm tryna hold on to my life
And mama i'm sorry I couldn't do right
Sorry for all of the times that i've lied