I need this

[Verse 1: not home.]
Smoke up on the porch
Watch the snow fall
Friend still gotta hold me
Man. I'm too gone
Curled up on the floor from the moon rocks
Chillin in my hoodie and my new socks
Haven’t had a meal in about 3 days
I’ve been feeling crazy in my own way
Feel the drugs spill through my thin veins
Can’t tell if i’ve been breathing, am I okay?

[Chorus: not home.]
Watch the sun turn to night
I swear these drugs keep me alive (me alive)
Oh. won’t you look at all the lights
Now I'm sifting through my memory while I’m fried (fried)
Now I’m staring at the trees, red eyes
Now these walls are looking wavy in my sight (sight)
Now they look at me differеntly
Dark coat, dark smoke underneath thе trees

[Verse 2: not home.]
Ripping joints, feel it in my knees
Numbing in my room, I’m just tryna sleep
Watch this knife fucking cut me deep
I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can barely breathe
Watch the trees slowly paint on the silent creek
Now i see someone else looking back at me

[Verse 3: lil skele]
Every night wipe my eyes
Why am I alive?
Blue pill, cold air
But I hate the high
Why you look so sad every time you lie?
I never see the signs, god I’m fucking blind
Don’t look at me like that
Pretty eyes with a knife in my back
You love to cut me it hurts so bad
And I still love you, it’s kinda sad

[Chorus: not home.]
Watch the sun turn to night
I swear these drugs keep me alive
Oh, won’t you look at all the lights
Now I’m sifting through my memory while I'm fried
Now I’m staring at the trees, red eyes
Now these walls are looking wavy in my sight