I Must Live With My Mistakes

[Intro]
I hope you really listen to this one, especially the younger generation

[Chorus]
They tell me my condition is incurable
They tell me that I need to take these drugs to numb the pain
It's days like this, I just wish that I could rewrite my history
But I must live with my mistakes

[Verse I]
I was popping twenty pills a day
I thought I was living that life
Mixing that codeine with that Sprite
Makes no sense in getting that high
That was followed by fifths and liters of vodka in that sunny [?] drive
Never thought that shit would catch up to me friends tried to warn me wasting they time
So I just pressed on with my addiction, wasn't a drug that I wouldn't try
In the studio, barely standing up, like fucking hell goodbye
I was dope boy but that dope boy was taking its toll on my health
Smoked the blunt with diamond then left got a mile down the road had to call for help
I was thinking I'm that lit, now freaking out, tried to shrunk it off that whole day
Woke up the next morning with chest pains, headed to the ER short of breath they
Told me I had symptoms of a heart attack now my heart beats in AFib
If I didn't slow down or quit I'd never see my mid twenties I couldn't say shit
But I also didn't listen, kept the popping up I started snorting
Probably should have listened to those warnings cause by 09 I was on my fourth one
So I quit drugs and I stay sick, somehow my weight was gaining
But I told the doctors they couldn't medicate someone abusing medication

[Chorus]
They tell me my condition is incurable
They tell me that I need to take these drugs to numb the pain
It's days like this, I just wish that I could rewrite my history
But I must live with my mistakes

[Verse II]
Four years sober now when it feels different but I thought that time would heal
But the damage is done, just a few months ago, had another spell behind the wheel
Had me pissed off, damn near depressed, since then I've been worthless
But my girl has been by my side, can't thank her enough, cause I know she don't deserve this
But I love you girl and you're appreciated, you truly are my wife
Wish I could go back to when I was younger beat my dumb ass till I stopped
So when them rappers glorify drugs and these teens think it's the trend
I hope you look at me and realize I can never be fixed
Still ain't comfortable driving but I'm trying, if you learn anything from me stay the fuck from round it
Cause everyday at some point my heart goes crazy, ain't shit I can do about it
Sorry for everyone in my past that cared about me 'n saw me like that
Sorry that now I'm fine y'all act like y'all don't know where I'm at
But I understand and ain't mad at y'all I wish everyone of you the best
And don't this as me bitching, I'm alive I consider me blessed
I just hope someone hears this song and gets inspired to not be next
Cause none of this shit was worth it, signed Finesse

[Chorus]
They tell me my condition is incurable
They tell me that I need to take these drugs to numb the pain
It's days like this, I just wish that I could rewrite my history
But I must live with my mistakes