I MISS YOU

[Verse]
Well, here we are again
Another letter to you, just like it's always been
My faded memory, I know you still remember me
Decided to remind me this morning when you said to me...
...Nothing, I lied
We haven't spoken since that one night in July
But I like to pretend that we still have these conversations
Even if it's just me talkin' to hallucinations
But why'd you have to hit my line indirectly?
Every glimpse of what you usеd to be could turn out to be deadly
My last lеtter stayed in the archives for a reason
I know that I've been an ass, but I wouldn't commit treason
I still got promises to keep, believe it or not
At the very least, I wouldn't act without some forethought
I got some standards, I won't put you in the spotlight
But the empty pedestal remains and it's not right
The soft rose lights cast a shadow 'gainst the silhouette
Which can only be seen with some of Angel's cigarettes
Cassette tapes playin' on the ride back home
Freestylin' poems about— I can't remember
I guess that I forgot
It's been harder to remember things ever since I've been shot
My brain was scrambled by the seven rounds to the dome
One left to finish the job so I can finally go home
Even in my dreams now, you're without a face
At this point, there's almost nothin' left to erase
You're beyond a ghost now, soon I'll be like you
Maybe then we'll reconvene and I'll walk beside you
Until then, I'll keep writin' haikus in this notebook
Snow falls on the coast, gentle breeze in a rosebush
Haunted by your ghost, that's where I close the book
A glimpse is all that you need, don't get a closer look
But I hope you're doing well
Every so often I consider hitting up your cell
Just to ask you how you've been, but I'd only get the dial tone
Desperate for connection, but I know I need more time alone
I wonder if you still have that turtle necklace
The white one I gave you when I was feelin' reckless
Back when your energy to me was so infectious
Tracin' your fingers over my solar plexus
You left me breathless, said my name and I'd collapse
Possessed by the feeling that led to the attacks
I'm not surprised that you blamed me
But I still wonder if what you said was right about...
I said I made this all for me, but it hasn't been really
It's never been for me, chances are it won't ever be
Don't want to die yet, fightin' to get one minute more
One more quiet moment with you in the branches of the sycamore
The shore is more ash than sand by now
I hope you don't struggle much to climb out
Hidden from the sunset by the rocky cliffs beyond
It's a good thing that I'm drowning, I'm not sure how to respond
To your final words to me
I just remember your beauty
And how you looked straight through me... (Fuck, fuck...)
I miss you