I Might Die If I Go to Sleep

[Intro: Gripp]
It is 3:12 AM
3:13 now
And I can't sleep
Again!

[Verse 1: Gripp]
I feel like shit; that's real life, kid
Frozen pizza, Miller Lite's the only meal I get
Ripping pages out my rhyme book. I don't still like this
Feel like a deranged parent tryin'a kill my kids
Drive them into a lake. I'm having a mental debate
With the voices in my head like they won't let me escape
They're incessant. I told them to quit pestering
They just won't learn their lesson. I need to lessen my ethyl intake
I skipped everything; it really felt great
I wish that everyday could be a mental health day
But I'm stuck between twelve steps and the twelve gauge
Between latching my safety belt and stepping on the beltway
No, I'm not suicidal yet
But even so, I wouldn't take this as an idle threat
The voice in the side of my head keeps calling me
I just want to shut it off and drift off to sleep

[Hook: Vatic]
Sleep when you're dead
I might die if I go to sleep
There's voices in my head
And I swear that they're not me
They said I'm crazy, I'm angry
And I can't disagree
They said I’m wasting my brain away
And I know what they mean
La la la la...

[Verse 2: Gripp]
Okay, who's coming with me? Sing an ode to self-destruction with me
Fuck this one, I'll get another kidney
Could give a fuck if renal failure makes me even paler
I'll take a hundred fifty shots 'til the thunder's wimpy
Hallucinate i run the city through the dry heaves
Then Ustream shouting, “Why me?” on live feed
That's what you're asking for, right? What you expect of me?
Writhing on the bathroom floor? Crumbling into feta cheese?
Just like a bed of leaves, repressed memories
I'm drinking heavily, it's draining all my energy
I got a message from my future self. The letter reads
There's a path ahead of me that's all paved with deader trees
It leads to a den of thieves taking ketamine
Laughing 'bout the petty reasons I believe they're enemies
I want to get to sleep and I could do it sober
But tonight I'm using the booze to go induce a coma

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Gripp]
I woke up queasy, already feeling trashed
Broke a pill in half; last one, just killed my stash
I need another 'scrip. This world'll feel my wrath
On the warpath killing dragons with a million stabs
That would be really bad, if I lost my hold on life
My brain's already like a G.I. Joe Cobra strike
Lucky I've got insurance at all anymore
Sanity is a luxury we can't always afford
I'm not supposed to be drinking, I didn't want try it
Want to go on that diet. I guess I'm non-compliant
I guess I'm on a riot. I can't quantify it
Just know I'm lightyears from the nearest harbor island
My odometer's spinning; I can't restart the mileage
And if this mirror don't stop staring, I'll carve my iris
I won't get armed and violent, but I might act wild
'cos every day is a countdown to blackout

[Hook]