I Messed Up

[Intro: Joe Budden]
Superstar Music, Joey
Uh, Emanny
Ha, uh
Uh, and it go, uh
Talk to her

[Verse 1: Emanny]
This wasn’t what it’s s'posed to be
I went from having fun to having fantasies
And I had every chance to get you 'way from me
But now I'm just coming back like a fiend, you went from a slide to a friend
Then another, now you're everything (Fiend)
Tryna lie and tell myself that you ain’t anything (Fiend)
But I'm in your bed with my phone off
Should be out the door but I doze off
When I know I should be leaving
But I can’t control how I am feeling, girl

[Chorus: Emanny]
I messed up
I started to care
Wish I could leave her right after we finish
But I stay in it
I messed up
I fell in love with her
Not what I wanted or needed
But found it, now tryna lose it
I messed up
I messed up, yeah
I messed up
Yeah

[Verse 2: Emanny]
Never did it occur to me
That one night of passion could ever lead to you being the one for me
Can’t believe I let you get close to me
I'm out of my mind to ever think that I could keep this up without getting
Caught up with the reality
Try to lie and tell myself you don’t mean anything
But I'm in your bed with my clothes off
Should put a condom on but we go raw
And I know I might be tripping
But I can’t ignore how you're feeling

[Chorus: Emanny (Joe Budden)]
I messed up
I started to care
Wish I could leave her right after we finish
But I stay in it
I messed up
I fell in love with her
Not what I wanted or needed
But found it, now tryna lose it
I messed up
I messed up, yeah
I messed up (I mean)
Yeah (We all do, check this, uh)

[Verse 3: Joe Budden]
I mean we started out respectable
Was just a good time, but it opened mind when she was bisexual
And now I'm confused as I stare at the ceiling while laying in bed witchu, no senses like a vegetable
You the type of chick that I tell my niggas I’d never do
Was s'posed to be the pop off, top me off every time she got dropped off
Somewhere in there all morals got lost
It's looking like assault without a weapon (How?)
Shawty wit' her guard down and me without protection
Was taught that you can’t tame a ho (Nah,) but if you should try
And get denied you shouldn’t blame a ho, that’s the only game she know
But I keep a poker face, 'cause with all the shit that I hear about her
It'd be a shame if niggas knew that really I cared about her
Started out respectable (Uh,) was just a good time
But opened my mind when she was that flexible, changed the whole set of rules
Now instead of calling shawty a cab, I let her stay
And honestly she might be the best mistake I ever make

[Chorus: Emanny]
I messed up (Oh)
I started to care (Started to care)
Wish I could leave her right after we finish
But I stay in it
I messed up
I fell in love with her (Oh, I fell in love with her)
Not what I wanted or needed
But found it, now tryna lose it
I messed up (I messed up)
I messed up, baby
Woah, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, I messed up