I’m suffering, help me.

[VERSE]
Every day I'm fighting battles and nobody knows
But instead of talking 'bout it, I like keeping it closed
Hide my pain with a smile, underneath that; it shows
But sometimes it's hard to hide so I weep 'till it blows
I just wish I had someone who understood me for real
Not someone who say they love me just to see how I feel
I would never make these scars if I knew I could heal
I put every drop of hope into a dose of some pills

Hopefully they make me feel better
I knew my girl would break my heart and I still let her
I went and put myself through hell so she'd feel pleasure
While I was fixing, she was breaking, that was real clever
I'll never put my love in another person
What's the point? In the end, I'mma end up hurting
I never told you I was perfect, but at least I'm worth it
How you go from saying "baby" to "this isn't working"?

I just don't appreciate the way you treating me
I'm at war with my depression and it's beating me
Laying dead in a coffin where I need to be
And all I wanted was for someone to believe in me
But at the end of the day, I believe in myself
'Cause you went and changed on me when I needed your help
And this ain't about the money, yo, it's deeper than wealth
I just need someone to save me from myself or else

[HOOK]
I'mma keep cutting my wrist 'till I can't feel no more
Maybe rip the bandage off so I can't heal no more, yeah
You say you love me but I'm still unsure
And I'm not needy but I still want more, yeah

And I've been battling depression since I was 11
Funny how a demon made me feel like I'm in heaven
And I've been through everything and I'm steady stressing
And all I want is better things and that's my confession
And when I pass away please don't say you cared for me
'Cause when I really needed you, you wasn't there for me