I’m Sorry [My Fall]

Verse 1

12 years old with the anger of a 30, everything they said or did, seemed to hurt me, I talked back, screamed and didn't care, you won't understand, unless you're standin over here

See it from my angle, I beg you, maybe then you'd see why I'm always sayin to heck with you, maybe then you'd understand why I'm always pissed off, why I curse and hit the walls, I'm in a free fall

No one to catch me, do I want to be caught, three years ago I woulda said nope, let me rot, I was messed up, thats true, but no one saw, no one realized this boy was ready for that fall

He planned for it, had these notes written up, in case he caved in, and finally gave up, and all this time he was never prepared, cause 12 years old was supposed to be the best of his years

Chorus

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all those times, I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I wasn't kind x2

Verse 2

Shit, I start to tear while I'm writin this, feels great after all those years I was fightin this, didn't wanna accept the nature of my soul, I wasn't whole, had a hole in my heart, and didn't know

I felt fine, I mean sure I'd snap some times, punch my sister in the arm, and yelled at her until she cried, then I'd go down to my room, sit up and justify, but its bullshit, no matter what it isn't right

To make a sister cry, watch the tears down her face and try to say that it was just puttin her in her place, god damn, I hate what I am, what I was, and what I'll become if I stay on this path

Every day I have a relapse, and collapse under the pressure of knowing that I'm a failure, never amount to nothin, thats true, with no saviour, alone in this room, its my own fault, my fall into doom

Chorus

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all those times, I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I wasn't kind x2

Verse 3

I can't look in the mirror, I hate what's lookin back, that thing in the glass is scary, broken and cracked, is it me, really, thats what I've become, scars and black eyes, that never seen the sun

People change, I thought not I, as you can probably hear, that was all lies, I changed the most, hid behind a disguise, put up a false smile, and no one questioned my

Happiness, that word seems a rarity, I'm blinded to my life, glasses couldn't give me clarity, I'm walkin at night in the middle of the street, think maybe I'd be happy if I go follow the sheep

Get in line, everybody step, ten hut, I'm sorry I can't do it, I'd rather stay in that rut, I'm fallin quick, and nobody can save me, I'm sorry to my family, I know I'm a little crazy

Chorus

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all those times, I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I wasn't kind

Verse 4

I'm sorry for always bein mad, it was my fault completely but I blamed my mom and dad, I blamed my brother and my sisters, how stupid of me, I was ignant, I'm sorry if you doubted my love and I hope you get this

Outro: I may not change right away, but I want you to know that I'm trying, and even though this doesn't make up for the way I've been, I'm sorry