I’m Sorry “I’m Okay”

I've been waiting to be held by arms that feel real
There is nothing in my mind, can't pull myself out
I can't find the words to speak I feel inside
That I should just give up and die
Mama's begging me not to leave her side, I'm sorry there's just pain inside
You might not be able to feel but it's real, monsters haunt me I'm in a cell of self deprecation. I can't find meaning to this bullshit that I do day in and out
You kiss my lips but do you feel my mouth
I'm singing about my lack of self
I scream and shout for you my dear, I'm sorry I hurt you nothing seems clear

But I fear I'm not gonna be here for next year