I’m So Sorry

[Chorus]
Life might end tonight
I'm so sorry
Please don't cry
I'm so so sorry

[Verse 1]
If I say I'm fine you know that is just a lie
I can't even fake a smile
Please don't cry
Tonight might be the night that I do die
Riding this wave of pressure
Victim to depression
Laying in my bed like a fucking stretcher
My shrinks telling me that I just need to think
Like just stop and blink see the bigger picture
Telling me that I need to see a doctor get the all-clear
After my last suicide attempt, I'm yelling at god to fix my mindset
Everything riding on my shoulders at such a young age
I'm screaming fuck my grades and how I was made
Don't understand all this stress is just building
But it's me that it is killing
Wanna just kill it like it is just a disease
Looking all around for anything just to ease
Thoughts of suicide on my mind like all the time
Not used to this and I really need some help
Wonder if this is just the shitty hand that I was dealt
I got good eyesight but I can't find the light
I don't see it at night only my demons and the voices in my head
I remember everything that they have ever said
Saying everyone hates me and that I should die
Thoughts are running in my head at high speeds I might
I just wanna fly away I can't stay I would pray
But I lost hope I lost faith along the way
I'm so alone I'm so alone yeah

[Chorus]
Life might end tonight
I'm so sorry
Please don't cry
I'm so so sorry

[Verse 2]
Please understand it was never my plan
Never my plan to feel this fucking bad
Every single coping mechanism is a bad vice
I will never take anybody's advice
I'm stuck my head like a fucking prison
I will never listen
But I always glisten in the dark
Being happy I guess I missed that mark
Trying to find the spark
Trying to cope trying to cope
I don't know if I'll live past twenty
But if I don't then I know that was never meant to be
Everybody's dealing with their own demons
Depression is with everyone in my generation
It's just how it goes these days it's fucked up
We all deal with things differently maybe a cup
Maybe a fuck maybe drugs I can't judge yeah

[Chorus]
Life might end tonight
I'm so sorry
Please don't cry
I'm so so sorry