I’m Not Ready for the Change

Evening turning dark
Bursting from the car
Tail-light-red and laundromat
White across the tar
Fireflies in waves
Feelings come unstuck
Why is it funny every time
I try to open up

Look, all I know
Is I’m on the floor again
Pressed beneath my skin
And I’m not ready for the change

Push me to the wall
Hand against my face
Sing to me what I’m thinking
An unlimited wellspring of pleasure and pain
Cling to my wrist now, darling

Movies through the winter days
Pirouette in the living room in summer
Swore we had the time and space
Just think of me
We’ll say it’s a start
But first things first I’ll fall apart

Sure of what I was
Wrong in every way
Grasping for the pieces I had hold of yesterday

Look, all I know
Is I’m on the floor again
Pressed beneath my skin
And I’m not ready for the change
Look, all I want
Is someone to fall into
Catch this faithless frame
I’m not ready for the change

I’m not ready for the change