I’m not okay

I'm not okay right now
Heart is bleeding out
Dying by myself
And I know there is more to life
But I feel if I die
No-one would care enough to cry

(yeah) and tell me that they understand
But they don't got a clue
Even when I'm happy they don't notice that I'm feeling blue
I fall in with depression I don't think that I can make it through
And if I did it wouldn't matter cause I'm losing you
I'm tired of feeling I don't know where I should start
I've been trying to figure out how to cope with a broken heart
And everything I'm touching is destined to fall apart
So I've been laying low while alone till I'm seeing stars
I hope they understand but I don't hope that they relate
Cause really I don't want nobody else to feel this way
I've been drowning in my problems at the blood to ease the pain
And my anxiety is breaking me it kills me everyday
I sit inside my room and write these songs to get me out of bed
I'm stuck inside a broken mind all alone inside my head
Sick of being tired and I'm sick of taking all these meds
But all I want to do is fade away so put me down to rest

I'm not okay right now
Heart is bleeding out
Dying by myself
And I know there is more to life
But I feel if I die
No-one would care enough to cry

So you can follow me right down down down
I fell like rey cause I just don't feel okay right now
Am I insane cause I just can't use my brain right now
And you don't listen that's the reason for my pain right now
Yeah I've been calling but you never pick up
So how the hell you think I'm living it up
I feel it right in my gut
You ain't a girl you're a slut
Yeah I just wan't to take a shot for
Every dude that you fucked
My mind's enclosed I hope you know I'm broken n cold
Yeah you growing from a lie like you Pinocchio nose
I heard it's colder in July but I'm so empty I froze
N all the times we tried to talk I know it's spoken in code
And I'm depressed but I ain't asking for help
I'm just trynna play the cards I was dealt
I handle shit by myself and if I come out clean
Then depression ain't a bitch she just a goddamn queen

I'm not okay right now
Heart is bleeding out
Dying by myself
And I know there is more to life
But I feel if I die
No-one would care enough to cry