I’m lost and i’ll probably be gone soon

[Chorus: Hashu]
I'm lost and I'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to
I'm tryna be more careful with my words
But to be honest, I'm exhausted, that's the cost of lessons learned

I'm lost and I'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to
Know when I say that i'll be gone that's either touring, playing songs
Or you'll be talking to my mom saying "we're sorry for your loss"

[Verse: Hashu]
I think about the end, sometimes I'll tweet it if I'm low
Get a couple hundred messages from people I don't know
And they tell me it would kill them if I leave or if I go
And I can't bear the guilt, can't let it leak, can't let it show

I feel the grief within my bones, I'm fucking tired (I'm fucking tired)
I wanna close my eyes and I see
That slumber's older cousin has a thing for dating guys like me
Yeah, yeah

I try to stay strong for other people
Always tried to do my best when voices telling me I'm evil, I
Swear i'm barely breathing, I
Want to up and leave and I
Swear that when I do it that I don't want you to grieve and cry

You'll probably say you love me when I'm gone
But where was that shit all along?
Where were you when I was drowning?
I was fucking suffocating
I was so far in my head, I had no patience, done with waiting
So, five minutes from suicide, I walked onto a stage
I rapped about my life like it always would be the same
I stepped outside my comfort to all you chanting my name
You like "Hashu, that man's inside, on a rocket that's straight for fame"
Fuck it

Write it down, what ever story fits me best
Because i'm morbidly depressed
Lost in the [?] and the stress
I'm drowning in my sorrow, let me wallow in it
I'm probably feeling empty 'cuz i'm hollow, is it
Ironic that I'm lost but they follow the kid
Yeah they follow the kid, like man they follow the kid
As far as friends go here, I know apollo is it
I moved down the Florida, barely talked to him since
Yeah I know he's busy, and I get it and I just need a friend
Need someone to tell me I can make it to the evening's end
I wish we were still in Granville
I miss the nights we were in Granville

Aside from Jackson, I have Hani
Someone tell him that I'm sorry
I can not continue living like a ghost inside a fuckin' human's body
So someone tell him that I'm sorry
I can not continue living like a ghost inside a fuckin' human's body

[Chorus: Hashu]
So i'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to
When I say that i'll be gone that's either touring, playing songs
Or you'll be talking to my mom saying "we're sorry for your loss"

I'm lost and I'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to

I'm lost and i'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to

I'm lost and i'll probably be gone soon
'Cuz I don't have a soul that I can talk to