I’m Happier When I’m Sad

[Verse 1]
Yeah you said that I was never there for you
That's some BS girl cause you that I cared for you
Even said id be a billionaire for you
But you selfish, yeah I was not prepared for you
Unaware that you wasn't my friend
Prolly' wanted me dead
Fill my body with some lead
Never wanted me to make it
I know I just think that and its not true
I just get defensive
Swear it wasn't you
Ima take a walk I just need some space yeah
Tryna be my best self, you know that I'm grindin'
Not tryna put you on the shelf
Baby you know that I'm lyin'
How I feel about myself, 'cuz I ain't feelin myself
But its not right so I get high just to feel fine
Ill be alright
Here comes the depression like I'm happier when I'm sad
'Cuz without it I ain't workin'
I dont wanna make you mad, i still wanna be happy
But when i start to rep my own thoughts they all come attack yeah

[Chorus]
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap

[Verse 2]
Tryin' but i feel empty
I need to know that you're with me
I need you right here to kiss me
I wonder if I deserve it
'Cuz baby my time is valuable
My questions are insoluble
Intrusive they're unstoppable
My head hurts it's not optional
Not toppable
I try so hard Baby I swear that its phenomenal
But it all ends the same like I said its untoppable
Trying to believe in the gospel
But its been hard when lately I've been feeling awful

[Chorus]
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap
I'm tryin' and you know that
I swear that I'll be right back
Love's lethal like its a stab
You love me I know that's cap