​i’m an addict

[Spoken Intro]
Ah fuck, fuck
Fuck, I don't even want to be awake right now
I don't wanna be fucking thinking
Thinking way too fucking much, I been
Trapped in my fucking head
I don't even want that shit
Ego Mackey

[Verse 1]
Barely made it here, where i am ain even near
The point ain clear so im selling drinking drank no fear
Lived my whole life in fear, 'cause my mind always right here
Making friends with myself, always been bad for my health
Get high 'till I'm just a shell, popping them shells, go right to hell
Done too much dirt, can't ask for help, not like I would do that to myself
Take my charge and then deal with it, wait 'till I'm high then
Let them feel this, fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss

[Hook]
Close as I can get to that shit, a few hours long
I can go waiting 'fore I go and take something lift
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Fake happiness, heroin, bitch I'm close to bliss
Closest I can get, get to that shit
A few hours long I can go with—
Before I go and take some bitch, yeah

[Pre-verse]
Don't say it for me, know, yeah I'm an addict
Don't say it for me (bitch), know I'm an addict
Don't say it for me, know that I'm fucked, yeah
Whole life shit, whole life, shit (hah)

[Verse 2]
Ah, but what can I do, what can I do?
Huh, you know that I'm broken, I'm broken too (huh)
And I feel like all I'm gonna do is hurt you (ah)
Drugged off blues, lean and xans, bitch, yeah the Percs too
Canadian-Oxy, 80s blue, dirty 80s, green
Fentanyl, give you the blues
Fentanyl stuck to my brain, bitch, like glue
Opiates stuck on my nerves, yeah, nothing new
I was high at fourteen, I was already bored of weed
Addict bitch, yeah, you know I was born a fiend
Started selling xans and lean, ended up selling crack and beans
Caps mostly filled it with methamphetamine
And now streets is all mostly fentanyl
All these drugs, all these drugs, y'know they really killing me
All these drugs, all these drugs really live in me
When I'm dead, hope that they all fucking miss me (yeah)

[Hook]
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss
Close as I can get to feeling that shit
A few hours long I can go without it
Before I go take some, and take some and then

[Outro]
Don't say it for bitch, yeah, know I'm an addict, oh
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss
Close as I can get, yeah, to that shit
A few hours long, I can go without it, before
I go take some, go and take some, yeah
Don't say it for me, know I'm an addict
Before I take some, take some, yeah
Fake happiness, heroin, close to bliss