I’m Afraid

Intro:
Yeah.. there is a moment when you actually have to, fucking grow up

(Verse 1)

The transition from a boy to a man
But I don't wanna grow up, I wanna stay where I am
I just wanted to dream
To be free
To be heard
To be me
And I'm afraid to hear what people might think
And I'm afraid that I'll grow up to be mean
To be hated, un-trusted
I'm afraid when I'm married the girls will come back that I lusted
For, then they run out the door
Then I never see them again. no more
And that I feel dead inside, I am dead inside...
But I'm afraid to let it show, and I'm afraid to let them know
That I wish I can die
I wish they knew I wasn't afraid of suicide..
Of suicide
But, I'm afraid that I won't go to heaven
I'm afraid that I will go to hell
And I'm afraid that I will never learn my lessons
And I'm afraid that I will never do well
And I'm afraid that I never stop lying
Cause I really truly am afraid of dying
I'm just lying to myself... I really hate myself
I'm afraid of what people might think of this song
I'm afraid cause I've been holding this in for too long
I'm afraid to feel anything cause I'm dead inside
I'm afraid cause I forgot how it feels to be alive

Outro:
I forgot how it feels to be alive (to be alive)
Well ain't that some shit...