​​​i’m a dying flower & you’re the pesticide

I know that I'll be dead soon
Don't know why it's so hard to not feel blue
I'm a dying flower, I can't bloom
I take a couple pills and throw them up in the restroom
Unfit for love, I'm imperfect
Don't wanna talk, I'm not worth it
See all the sutured wounds on my surface
Know I'm a stupid bitch, I deserve it

Bound to the room, and it's never been this bad
Again I'm staring at the ceiling, again I'm looking at the past
And it's all I'll ever think about
I was happy 'til you cut me out
And I wish they'd tell me they were proud
But they lock me out, and shut me down

I know that I'll be dead soon
Don't know why it's so hard to not feel blue
I'm a dying flower, I can't bloom
I take a couple pills and throw them up in the restroom
Unfit for love, I'm imperfect
Don't wanna talk, I'm not worth it
See all the sutured wounds on my surface
Know I'm a stupid bitch, I deserve it