I love you and everything will be okay

And I hate myself because there’s a story I can’t tell
I lament my decisions, every day I’m, living in hell
The day that a man who stood tall had fell
Without a single thank you and a wish farewell
We was talkin and walkin down the street of our block
It was a sunny day, yet the puddles drenched our socks
From the day before, where the rain wouldn’t stop
Careless of what we was sayin, careless of what we was thinkin
I should of seen it comin, for fuck sake I wish I was thinkin
We was young, so the world was like our kingdom
Yet I looked up to him as he, told of his regretful decisions
How he would go back and right the wrongs in an instant
And in an instant, a black suburban had came to a stop
The sounds of pistols silenced the block
Kids went silent, birds weren’t chirping
Blood rushed from his shirt, Reggie was shot
And he dropped
Gasping for air, I held him in my hands
“It’s gonna be okay, please I love you, please just get up and stand”
And there he went, caused by a weapon
So much tension, and suddenly
He gazed at me, no facial expression
Tell Jenyssa I love her, and I’ll see you in heaven
I’ll be waitin
Tears running down my face, I felt my heart racin
“Someone help! Please, he’s bleeding out”
He was the only person who could see me out
I could almost hear the ECG pacing out
What the fuck am I supposed to tell Jenyssa, I ain’t had him protected?
I let her son die, and not done shit to step in?
She must’ve thought that I just walked away and left him
I fucking didn’t
Jenyssa, I watched your son die
I watched as he struggled for breath and as he let out a last outcry
He’s always kept a passionate love for you, that’s shit I can’t deny
You gave him life, he didn’t deserve to die
I lay awake some nights, stressing about those times
That shit left me corrupted
Mentally disrupted
But I love to reminisce on dumb shit
We used to do and go numb
Once I remember he was gone in one hit
I have dreams where I’m constantly chasin him
Running after him, right up until he stops and I’m facin him
Just to revision the same look he had when his soul escaped from him
And that shit scars me