I’ll Never Know

I remember the room with the TV on
And you sitting asleep before you were gone

We watched Thousands Cheer and lily Mars
Strike Up the Band and Babes in Arms

Brush light on the walls
Crash against the glass
And I'd watch your ash
Fall into your lap

I loved to watch the ghosts
Of cigarette smoke turning lithe and blue
And I loved the time we spent alone
That you never knew

Now I have a room with a TV on
I try to stay awake before I'm gone

Sometimes I don't but I can feel you there
When I'm losing track and I don't react

My mothers ghost
Of cigarette smoke curling calm and blue
And I love us being alone in the TV glow
When I think you don't know but you do