I Know

[Verse 1]
I know, I know
My open bedroom window
I hope that you made it home
I write a text to your phone
Or maybe I don't give a fuck
Or just don't want you to know
I let my head overflow
I hope that you made it home

[Verse 2]
Delete the message like I'm over it
Like I don't give a shit
Maybe you couldn't commit
Maybe I was too intense
Maybe you were hit and miss
Maybe I was something missing
Maybe you should look for it, now

I'll just keep my distance
Feel like you wouldn't listen
You act like you don't hear me
Say what you wanna say
I know you thought that I'd be perfect
Like that was your decision
I tried I know it isn't working, I'm still not enough

[Verse 3]
Why do I always feel muted
You're screening my calls with the autoreply
I could type out a text but you wouldn't reply
Now I say it, this shit sounds so stupid
Why do you do this
You told me this wasn't one night and to call you when I get inside
Trying to swallow my pride but it's big enough for all my brokenness to hide behind
I am so tired, since the day that we met I feel like I've forgotten what my bed feels like
How come each time that I open up into a person, detergent, they turn like the tide
How come I always misread people, trying to guess before I even know what they're like
How come I have to make music to postpone from choosing the noose or the pills or the knife
Why is my life so confusing, abusing prescription, amusing the demons inside
Why do my nightmares continue into the day thought that they ended right after the night
Why do I constantly think of you trying to lose me that shit just replays in my mind
Why can I find seven reasons to forgo the music but not one to keep me alive

[Hook]
I know, I know
My open bedroom window
I hope that you made it home
I write a text to your phone
Or maybe I don't give a fuck
Or just don't want you to know
I let my head overflow
I hope that you made it home

[Outro]
It's private
And I know I've grown so reliant on the yellowish lighting that covers the violence but
But I know when you said you needed me you were lying
And I ran out of lies